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Yes Jan, I will once it's done!! In the meantime I will post chapters of Broken Whispers-- Life and Times of a Pavement Prostitute -- a novel in verse. I am waiting to make an email list before posting in Substack..!

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Ok, excellent, I can (barely) wait!

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Loved this chapter Jan. I’ve also referred to my own experience with overwhelming sadness as a mist of melancholy which lingers gently after the thick fog of depression has lifted. Your interactions with Ngat and her family via the gift of Nikes from a friend is interesting and provides more insight into life there in Hanoi as do your descriptions of the streets.

This chapter had lots of themes in it and I found the last scene/story about the MD like person on the plane at odds with the rest, or maybe too unrelated … or unrelatable me. Maybe it leads into the next chapter I’m about to read.

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I'll look at the plane scene, there are other performance ideas to come... and about reading The Lover, as I say in Chap 1, I think it's not everyone's cup of tea, but I love it. There is a movie, The Lover directed by Jean Jaques Annaud, that tells the story in a more conventional way. It's a good movie.

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Thanks Maureen, ah yes, that mist, comforting at the same time so all pervasive. The town where Marj lived out the rest of her years and I lived my last 2 years of high school before leaving, used to get heavy fog til 2pm in winter. Marj hated it and investigated S.A.D. as a cause of her depression. I used to love going jogging in it, disappearing with out a trace...

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Again, your writing draws me in an. And.. because I am family. I had the same parents as you but saw them through my eyes. I too battle with the thwarting. Is it in our DNA? I often wondered if all my adventure activity was to escape the 'thwarting."

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Thanks Pip, oh that's interesting, yes I think you are onto something there! DNA, I don't know, but given Jeanie's illness after giving birth to Marj maybe it's connected...

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Yes! I can see it too!!!!

And Melancholia, the Lars Von Trier film... have you seen it? A weighted, slow walk through melancholy. One of my favs.

I’m so enjoying these chapters and the graceful weaving layers of you, your mother and MD.

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Thanks Kimberly, oh yes, I have seen it, it is amazing. I love the way we are tag team reading each other's memoirs, yours is hard to put down!

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Lovely threads and surprising synchronicities.

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Such an interesting read, this one, Jan. You weave MD and her incident gracefully. Your choice of words/phrases/imagery are a literary treat.

I have been writing about a sexagenarian classical musician searching about for a nineteen YO maverick girl in Kolkata and the setting is mostly around the riverbank Babughat and Princep Ghat (which I have been haunting since my childhood) and this novel-in-verse resonates with your memoir. Keep up with your fabulously literary piece !!

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Thanks Bob, I really appreciate your interest and comments. I'd love to read your Kolkata story, and in verse too! Sounds like a great setting, woukd you think of sharing it on Substack?

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Love the writing the easy flow of your words taking me back to some place years ago

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Thanks Phylli, that’s lovely to hear!

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